Dear
Bossip,
Look I met this guy when i was 15 years old, he was about 24. I
looked older than my age and i acted more mature.we hit it off the same
night, and we both felt a connection, that same night he told me that he
wasn’t with anyone.i stayed with him throughout the next 2 days, and i
went back home.. We talked on the phone and our vibes clicked. I soon
relized that he had a girlfriend beacuse he hung right away, without no
explaintion, when i called back the number woun’t go through. My gut
feeling told me he had a girlfiend. We met one day and i decided to take
my friend with me, when we soon got off the train and met him with his
friend he dissrepected me by saying,” Damn i think were gonna have to
switch. I payed it no mind. But soon after we lost touch. BEing that i
had one of his customers number i called he told me that he was probelly
in jail. I looked in up, and i found him. We kept in touch and i
vistied him as soon as i turned 18, i stole my fathers car almost about
every week, and had the phone turned on so that he could call me.
I talked to him one day about his ex’s, and i said why dont you talk
about them you could tell me anything, i guess he had got so used to
talking about his ex that eveytime we talked he was telling me intamate
deatils about her. i felt like -ish, but i couldn’t tell him to stop, so
being the hard headed person that i am i decided to do dumb stuff like
get a boyfirend and talk about him to make him feel like i felt. Only
matters got worse i some what got it stuck in my head that if i strip
mybe the topic of our converstaion could be about me. things only gotten
worse from there. He got out of jail to only be in a halfway house.i
felt like -ish beacuse his mother would say why dont you get anthor
girl, right in front of my face.
i swear when i was pregent i told him to tell her to bring me some of
my favorite food she cooked, but to only expect the opposite. This
women hated me so much that she offered me some soda, to only shake it
up while she was in the fridge to only handed it to me. His older sister
was the worse, she brought one of her hood rats friends in there and
that same day they sat from across each other to only embraress me. HE
was talking about how he wanted to marriend me, and how i was the one
for him, to only look at her the whole entire time that he was talking.
His older sister was making side jokes and laughing , and taking -ish
with that girl, which were shots at me.when the visit was over i guess
she gave him a hug,
He wanted to met at the side store and i was like yeah. I left home
beacuse you could only image how i felt.At that time i was going to
school to achive my dreams in the music bussissens , and soon after with
my first abortion, i just felt depress and lost and i broke down and
started not to got to school. When he got out i told him to prole to his
mother house beacuse i wanted to know her and i wanted her to like me.
BUt matters only got worse, his mother kicked me out of his house one
time, and used me to get rides, mostly without giving me money for gas.
This was where i first time he smaked me in my face, beacuse of any
aurgument we had. His older sister and everyone else in the living room
heard the aurgument.
When things died down she came in the kitchen
smiling asking me if somthing was wrong. I wanted to leave i tryed to
fight my way out the kitchen out the back door and left but he only took
my keys. i walked around and he followed me, I slept at his mother
house that same day only to be hiding under the covers int he morning.
Soon after we were in a store with him and his mother looking for
somthing to wear to a play, we were having a converstaion about church i
told him that we should go to church and he still getting an addittuite
and speaking loud saying i don’t go to church, i don’t do that since i
was little. I felt embraress and i guess he took notice of that and
asked me if i wanted him to payfor the dress. I said no beacuse i was
angry. then about sometime after that we were in KHOLES long story short
he told me he lost his phone so i told him to use the phone in the
front to call his celluar, he told me to go look in the car. When i pull
up i see that he speaking to a girl, then when he gets in the car i
told him why you speaking to her for he told me that he used her phone
to call his number to see where his phone was. We wernt to the barber
shop, and he told me he left it there. i let it slide, and swepted it
under the rug.
look i found a condom in his pocket on my birthday, and i just cried
out and jump in my bed. he jumped right next to me and told me that a
comdom truck was passing them out. i told him to leave and he was
walking away, i dont know why i called him back. i got pregent and had a
son, by that time it was misery i was working at cvs and ive had
gotten sick , i asked him to take me to the hospital, and it turned out
that i had a 102 degree fever. He was upset and told me that i owed him
100 dollers because i made him come here and stay with me, so thats why
he wasn’t able to hustle. i was working all the way up till my due date.
my back hurted i was miserable, and after i got off of work at 10 i had
to come home and make him some food to eat. One night i relized that he
wouldn’t let his phone off by his side, so i asked him to ket me
brorrow it, he didnt so i told my mom at 6 oclock in the morning to ask
him she we have a ouse phone beacuse when he was in jail, we ran up the
bill. He gave my mom the phone and i went downstairs to go through his
phone, i found pictures of a girl who wasn’t he as pretty as me, but was
showing her “privates” in one of the photos, it hurt me beacuse here i
am pregent, working, stressed out, my mother wount even speak to me
beacuse i was with him, i was in pain..some how i got over it after 2
and a half months.
Now we were at walmart , and this ugly tall girl he always looks at
evrytime we go there, he finally got the chance to ask her about my baby
could read. i backed off, and he ended up across the floor and called
me over to come with him to check out the product, he quickly turns
around and follows the girl and i wasn’t going to follow him, what i
look like a dog, it was about sometime i decided to look for him, i seen
them walking togher and he was foloowing her, he looked at me and said
we cant find it. then she was across the room giving him eye contact
like its here, we walked over there. He got close to her but she baccked
awy he did it agiain, and she backed away again . i was upset and
angry.we fought that night and he hit me in my face and in front of my
mother. we broke up.. i love him..i took him back..beacuse he had called
me to pick him up.. he is about to go to jail on some drug case, but i
think that he’s unsure if i want to stay with him, i do, but i want to
see if he changes what are your thoughts and tell me what you think
about it. –
Confused About My Man
You can read my response, HERE:
http://bossip.com/459635/dear-bossip-hes-on-his-way-to-jail-he-doesnt-think-ill-stay-but-i-want-to-see-if-hell-change/
